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Milestones
By bella | October 6, 2005
Having an infant and a toddler in the house means that there are always new milestones being reached. It seems like every day the baby learns something new, does some new “trick”, or grows about 6 inches! (Well, not quite 6 inches, but I swear he grows during his naptime sometimes!)
I am keeping a log of the baby’s “firsts” (idea stolen from another mommy blogger), and I intend to go back and make a list of all of S’s “firsts” too. (I kept up pretty well with S’s website when he was an infant, so I am betting that most of his “firsts” were recorded in the logs of that site).
Anyway, we experienced yet another “first” this evening. The baby rolled from his back to his front. (Insert WOOHOO here!) He has been able to roll from front to back for ages – oh, let me check the log – yep, since June 16, which means he was all of 1 1/2 months old when he reached THAT milestone. Anyway, the back to front was way more of a challenge for him. That silly ole arm just did NOT want to tuck under so he could make the complete roll. We thought he was going to do it yesterday, (and I was really rooting for that, since it was my birthday, and I thought it would be cool to have it happen on a day I’d always be able to remember), but alas – he could only get 95% of the way over, and he kept getting hung up on the arm/shoulder. Dad said I couldn’t count it as a complete roll (meanie!), so I thought I’d help the baby out by “teaching” him how to tuck and roll. Nope – even with me coaching him, he just couldn’t do it yesterday. But tonight, he DID IT! It was great, because Dad was home to see it, and we just clapped and cheered, while Baby AB looked at us and grinned and wondered why his parents were acting so silly.
I was thinking about this milestone for the baby, and all the others so far, and the ones to come. As usual, I started to overanalyze it, and think about how it all relates to us as adults. We don’t get to reach milestones every day, or even every week. The first year or two of life is unique in that way. Baby AB’s brain is growing and changing and absorbing new things every day, as is S’s. Is mine? I’d like to think so, but I find myself “sitting still” more than I find myself learning “new moves”. Especially after going through a difficult pregnancy, and living in a “fog” for so many months. I’m starting to come out of that fog now, and I’m not sure I’m happy with where I find myself. My identity is misplaced a bit, and I keep looking around, wondering who I am and how I got here. Don’t get me wrong – I love my life and motherhood, and wifehood. But, I don’t spend a lot of time challenging myself anymore. I don’t spend a lot of time researching and learning new things anymore. I think it’s time for some new goals, some new milestones, some new moves. Time for a list of “firsts” for me! As soon as I figure out what those firsts are going to be, I’ll let ya know!
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