Thoughts…

For the last couple of weeks, our youngest son, “Baby” Allan has been changing.  On April 28th, we celebrated his first birthday.  And ever since, he’s been acting like he’s two!  For some reason, he’s decided that the “terrible twos” need to start NOW, instead of next year.  Temper tantrums, yelling, kicking and flailing, screaming, loud angry noises, and angry angry faces.  It’s a bit unnerving, and extremely funny at the same time.

So, I’ve been saying over and over… “he better grow out of it now, or else we are TOTALLY in for it when he actually turns two!”  It occurred to me after having said that for the 20th or 30th time, that I need to be careful about what I think and say.  I don’t think something WILL happen, just because I say it enough times, but at the same time I don’t want to say something so often that I program my mind to believe it IS that way. 

I had this thought in conjunction with some other “deep” thoughts.  I have been making some changes that I hope will lead me towards being a stronger, happier, healthier wife and Mommy.  Almost immediately, I started “hearing” old thoughts in my head, about how I can’t make these changes… I’m just going to feel stressed because of the changes… it’s hard and I’ll probably just fail again, etc., etc.  I sat feeding Baby Allan the other day, with these old tapes running through my mind, and suddenly it clicked.  These old tapes need to be TURNED OFF!  I am doing myself no favors by listening to them, especially since most of it is garbage… lies that I’ve believed, and refuse to believe anymore.

So, one more change - work on turning off the the negative thoughts.  Time to begin pondering whatever is good and pure and all the rest…  It’s SO time for that already!